When I chose March to focus on my immunity, I didn’t realize it would be smack-dab in the middle of a pandemic! What timing I have! Healthy am I, and happy to report it!
I have been enjoying more exercise this month than the other two combined. I have coined, and realized, this month, how much I am enjoying the “backdrop of my life!” I am happy to report I’ve had little to NO pain in my knees minus intense pain that’s awakened me in the early morning hours. That may be caner, but it’s NOT my meniscus/tendons or ligaments. So, that is progress!!!!
Most of my responses to building my immunity this month have come in the form of supplements, but I have also been eating somewhat purposefully, as well. See below under March for both. I want to say I made a MOST delicious surprise for myself in the form of some kind of smoothie. Because this is becoming a norm for me, healthy drinks, I decided to turn my peanut butter, cottage cheese and honey craving I normally put into a bowl into the form of a smoothie. So, here we go: Almond milk, peanut butter, cottage cheese, a frozen banana & medicinal mushrooms. Halleleuia Chorus, come on!
Oh yea, there might have been some honey too. Scrumptious, and long-lasting in the filling department! Beyond that, I did have one more surprise in the delicious arena this month – Golden Milk – Tumeric, ginger, honey, almond milk and cinnamon. That was deliciously surprising given I’m not normally a fan of tumeric. And, for those who love their pumpkin spice drinks in the winter, fall months, this may be a good, healthier fill-in.
My main impetus for working on my immune system, remember, was to work toward the restoration of my skin. It is still looking rough though! Not much progress here, but I will press on as with all other areas on which I’ve begun working. I resorted to brillo-pads, but only after the less soft steel pads seemed to scrape off my skin – they were rough! You can see on my legs – they’re scabbed up from the raking over! And still left is this fungus, or whatever these white spots are! IGH!?
Idiopathic Guttate Hypomelanosis – sure, maybe. I am still doing the sun though a little. I still think it may be something else. Anyway, I am trying still. I am persisting in the face of not much progress on the skin front. Hear the attached video for some funny stories about my skin this month! This was totally impromptu one night while confined. Refraining from sharing my confinement revelations about myself while working from home, you get this less depressing me, but the music spoke for my actual frame of mind at the time, as does my initial sigh :).
I am excited about April because I will be cleansing! Yah.
So, stay tuned with the Digestive System! This will hopefully begin to make some improvements to my skin. I’m feeling as all these efforts on my different systems are building on one another, this one is surely to heal. As I start cleaning out, I will have better absorption of nutrients and better systemic health overall!
Make sure you watch my video. You may get a couple of good laughs.
Progress for My Skin and Bone Health
January – Integumentary System – Focus on Skin
Eating with Purpose: New foods for skin
Supplementation: A, D, E, copper, amino acid powder
February – Muscular-Skeletal System
Exercise: Yoga, walking, stretching, squats
Supplementation: Continuing same supplements from January. Plus:
Lysine (bones, muscles and collagen production).
Glucosamine & Chondroitin
Omega-3 fish pills
Bonus: Mental health – learning to slow down and enjoy myself
My 12 month journey of healing a condition I have on my legs, and an overhaul of my body, began in January with a focus on health and my skin.
I came to a place last week where I realized the focus on my skin may need to persist, which is has, as the primary focus of this year’s journey.
I moved on the the muscular-skeletal system last month with little progress there besides going for walks, doing yoga, getting a couple of massages and by need only, going to the chiropractor. My focus there was because I have had bad knees for 20+ years, but since I tore my meniscus almost 10 years, it seems there’s been one issue following another, but the good thing with that is exercise always helps – except when it causes more problems. I was told last summer to no longer run after my leg locked up on me and I literally could not move forward, I had severe weakness, and I even randomly collapsed on top of one of my students who was seated – awful. I did not accept that prognosis, but have kept it to a super! minimum, and now am at a point where I am trying to strengthen my knees and the muscles around them to rectify the problem.
So, despite my video on the the Spirit of Self-Control, I have gone to the gym less than I should have, and I almost got a personal trainer just to help me have more of a commitment to the healing process, but b/c seeing a trainer 2x/week costs $480/month, and I did not see much use in going to a trainer once a week, I bagged it. Maybe I should have, but I figured save the extra $200/month and get the Spirit of Self-Control operating a little more effectively this month and beyond! That is my plan.
A few weeks back, if that, I came to the realization that “I can’t keep up.” I was taking a walk to have a talk to God when I was trying to figure out what my issue was, the heaviness and bad feeling I was experiencing, and what came to me was clear, “I can’t keep up!” I’m digressing a bit, but my point is, with work alone, I have so much responsibility and other things I have committed to outside of work for myself are overwhelming.
Now, I am taking care of everything, but not as intently as I may like, like working out and blogging and researching about muscles and bones, and keeping up with my studying to take my professional certification test for horticulture. It may not seem like much, but when everything has a deadline, it’s overwhelming. It was overwhelming until I recognized it. I was so relieved to have realize it, or actually to have God have brought it to my awareness, that I was relieved! It was a simple truth! So lightening!I love it! To let it go to God and to have it off my shoulders.
I do not remember the heat of the emotion of the precipitating event or what I did besides admit it, but I likely asked for grace to get through all of it. Also, I think admission that I can’t do it all was a humbling I needed to have. I am a a believer that I can do it all, but one thing I’ve realized, is that there is a limit on what I can do at any one time. Yes, maybe I can and I will do it all. In time. But, I need help for all my goals to be accomplished, and I need time.
Funnily, I began to be more organized and productive at work! Grace. That motivated me to be more productive and organized, of course, too. I have a lightening of my load which ended on Friday, and I have one more big push outside of my regular teaching responsibilities that has to get done for graduation, and then it will be the end of the year by about a week. But this busiest two years of my professional career is about to come to a close.
My point is that I have failed to do more with focusing on my health, but I have to say blogging about it and researching about it, at much as I would have liked to do more of the latter, was not a priority – one other important thing I realized. I impose so much of my stress. I did feel maybe I should drop the $480/month, and maybe I will and consider it a life-long investment, like the trip I made to Mexico at the beginning of February for my niece’s wedding – family memories – a life long-investment.
My point is still that, I may have failed to “do more with focusing on my health,” but I succeeded in persisting in doing something still and not dropping it altogether because I don’t have it all together – giving up because I am not keeping up. It’s part of the process, and I am learning a lot from the business of my life – my favorite thing is to slow down and be in the moment – you can experience so much joy and peace in a moment – a walk to the car – laying down and listening to the fan before you fall to sleep – loving your house and your decorations, listening to the traffic in the distance as you eat and listen to music. Whatever it is, it can be so small, and fleeting, but I am learning to do that, be in the moment, and it’s so great. When I perfect that in every moment, wow! That will be a life.
Maybe I didn’t do a great job at what I thought I needed to achieve, but I definitely achieved what I didn’t know I even needed. I hadn’t planned on improving my mental health last month. What a bonus!
Progress wins! I heard a woman on the radio today say how if she keeps going to the gym, she can’t help but to make progress, or see results, something like that. Yes!
The point, yes, we may not being doing it 100% 100% of the time, but, for me, as long as I persist in all the myriad of goals I have, 100% of them will be accomplished, and, the most important ones will be met 100%.
January – Integumentary System – Focus on Skin
Eating with Purpose: New foods for skin
Supplemention: A, D, E, copper, amino acid powder
February – Muscular-Skeletal System
Working out: Yoga, walking, stretching, squats
Supplementation: Lysine (bones, muscles and collagen production). Continuing same supplements from January
Bonus: Mental health – learning to slow down and enjoy myself
One interesting tidbit I did realize in the service tonight is how great it is to have this time as a part of our religion – to specifically make time for God – not just 45 minutes here and there or even every morning, but really make a concerted effort to change your ways, devote more of yourself to your Lord and see where it takes you. Again, it can only be good.
Have you ever found that when you change one thing in your life, it has a ripple effect – that it tends to make an impact on other areas of your life? It can happen in a good or bad way. Luckily, I’m focusing on the good, and the dominoes are about to fall.
Lent has begun – the time in the Catholic religion where we repent (change our ways), fast (quit doing something, or maybe add something else), pray, and give of our time, treasure and talent. It’s a time of relinquishing what keeps us from God – his competition.
What competes for His time with me – watching television. I know, it’s a terribly boring subject, but it’s a time suck, and lends to a boring life, one that is less productive than it can be, is deceptive of actually relaxing you, and is both an energy and a time waster. What’s good about it? Well, there are some things – but those things we could also do through the internet or our phones. I like t.v., but I also know it competes for God’s time and makes my life less productive than it can be because of the energy and time I give to it. I’m quitting sugar too.
So, t.v. is out, for 40 days, and, there’s so much that can be done in 40 days!
I am not sure what I will do in addition to getting closer to God and praying more – another cause for another ripple domino effect, but only good will come from this, for sure. How many things can you say about that?
I think I have only ever been to two church services on Lent, maybe this is my first? I am not sure. I have still practiced Lent, however, in terms of fasting. 13 years ago, today, I gave up all of my remaining vices, and thanks to the Grace of God, I am off of everything to this day! Amen to that! Lent is a good starter for a life change!
One interesting tidbit I did realize in the service tonight is how great it is to have this time as a part of our religion – to specifically make time for God – not just 45 minutes here and there or even every morning, but really make a concerted effort to change your ways, devote more of yourself to your Lord and see where it takes you. Again, it can only be good.
I am interested in finding out!
I am reading these books, now, too called Draw the Circle, and The Circle Maker, and they’re all about these bold prayers and how they come true.
Now, I have my own wonderful stories about God and answered prayers you can listen to on http://www.hollycobrien.com as podcasts, if you want to hear of some amazing ways God works, and some are on this website, but I haven’t prayed any “crazy” prayers like I was reading about in this book last night, in a long time.
My life has been good and steady and need of “bold” prayers hasn’t presented itself, but I still pray about the time about everything. Although I will say, there is one thing I have prayed about, and when it comes through, there will be every belief it is God’s hand which has allowed it, for sure! I’ll hold that one tight for awhile, but will let you know. Still waiting, still praying. The bible says, “knock, and keep on knocking.” Okay:)
Anyway, I am excited for this Lenten period where I will talk to the Lord more, pray more, listen for the Lord more, and hear more internally. Like when I went to find a picture for this particular blog. I selected one and then heard one simple word, “more.” So, I looked more and found a perfectly matched picture for my title opposed to what I did have!
And, during the external, more secular aspect of Lent I will exercise more regularly, eat less, produce more personally and professionally, consider my future more and play more. I am going to have a good life! I will eagerly wait and wonder what will come as I pursue my life more fully each day considering all of my ways 🙂
One thing about me, I do well with discipline, and I am embracing this.
I will say when I left church tonight, I so craved a Boston creme donut, but as I began to wish, I found myself thinking, “Don’t give the devil a foothold.” So, I left it go, and drove on.
Weapons of warfare was discussed briefly, too, in the sermon, tonight. I was wondering tonight what my sword might look like. The sword, in the bible, in describing the armor of God, is the word of God. That, I love. That I will learn more of, too. I’ve already begun to put more verses on index cards to remember. “My people perish for lack of knowledge,” Jesus tells us, and our “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” So, we must “gird up our loins,” and fight with the whole armor of God. See Ephesians 6:11 – 18 about the weapons of warfare. We need them, for sure to stand against the “wiles of the devil” Just like my little donut episode. Know how to fight – seems simple, but it’s important not to give the devil a foothold.
I wish you fellow “Lenters” fasting and praying worthy of all good things.
When the woman began to put the ashes on my head, she said, “Repent, and believe the gospel,” I found myself welling up. I don’t know why, but I believe that was the presence of God on me or maybe just my real desire flowing forth.
I find that interesting that everyone is able to participate in Lent, and receive the ashes, but not everyone is able to receive holy communion.
All’s I know is that when she said those words, “Repent and believe the gospel,” I believed it.
This Lent season is really an answer to an unspoken prayer of desiring more of God, my main goal this year, and to draw closer to Him, so I am grateful for this time where it is part of a practice to make God more of an intentional part of my repentance regime. I will need His grace, too. That is something else mentioned tonight, also biblical, not to take his grace in vain. There is nothing possible without it.
This will be new for me too, to practice Lent, observing it more religiously, instead of using it as a crutch to help me “repent” because I needed a boost. In the past I may have repented, but I don’t know that I made prayer and focus more on God more of a practiced habit in my life, as well.
I will use my sword, say more prayers of both petitions and gratitude, positively engage in each day, and be grateful for the Grace that is Jesus Christ on my life, and exhibited in me.
I prayed to be forgiven for putting food before God, and the gluttonous individual I’d become still, at times. I’ve knowingly done it, too, because I wanted to and figured, “tomorrow” I will be better. I have come to know, however, that the “tomorrow” mentality permits a low life, poorly allowing one to live for a time that often never comes, and a well-lived life becomes elusive because the lie we tell ourselves to give us what we want for the moment persists, and then tomorrow remains elusive forever.
The Lord is My Portion
Last night found myself eating more than I needed to as I considered I would not be eating much of anything I wanted to next month because I will be doing a cleanse.
One of the things I like about my body is that it is resilient. Also, as much as I scrutinize my body every day, I don’t need to. I look great. I found that this morning. I have a pretty body. Sure, I have many flaws – my bottom is not as high and tight as I’d like it to be, I have some spider veins on my legs and a bit of loose skin on there too, and polka dots, and a bit of cellulite there too, but for the most part, I look really good! LOL. Seriously, it doesn’t sound that good, but it is, I can assure you. Well, maybe it’s just not bad:)
I regularly eat what I want for the most part, and with the exception of over a year ago, I keep things pretty much in moderation. But when I do buy goodies, I pretty much go all at them until they are gone. I recall one time, however, within this past year when I had ice cream in my freezer for a long time, and I didn’t consume it just because I had it, I ate it when I wanted it, which I found was not daily. This is in severe contrast to last week where I ate my two pints of BOGO free Ben & Gerry’s from Friday to Sunday, and have done the same with a whole half gallon in the matter of a weekend before. I’m a big fan of ice cream. It would be my dessert island food!
What I am getting at, is that recently I am finding I am sick of the power I am giving to my food. It’s almost like I pride, which I do, myself of being able to eat anything I want without gaining weight – with the exception of over a year ago when I gained a good six pounds because I ate everything that came my way, and more, from October to sometime in January or February. I just went all at it and didn’t care. Maybe because I realized this about my body.
When I was in my early teens, 13, I began my long and sad career as a binge eater and bulimic. It is not that I was overweight or anything of the sort. I saw something on the television where girls were bulimic, and for some reason I got the perverted notion that I could do that. It’s almost like I had some need to have something I could do, and that was it. I was lost in those days – living with my best friend and her parents. Though they were very good to me, and I loved them, I was a misdirected youth with no one helping to guide my future.
I do not remember much from 13 until I was in 11th grade in terms of “being” bulimic, but in 11th grade I know it was bad, and remember it clearly. I won’t go into the gross details of it now, but it was bad enough to where I was hospitalized at 16, and not because I was so skinny they thought I would die, but more so because they were worried I may have a heart attack or suffocate trying to puke up my food. Or, maybe they just knew I was lost and treatment was necessary to help me from that way of poor living. Those days, I do remember, and I remember clearly eating my feelings all the time, how miserable I was, and puking them all up at the same time, but I was always, “fine.” My mom and grandmother clearly knew better.
That was really my life. I would eat and puke for hours after school, or work, later after I had relapsed, and moved away from my support group into a toxic environment and relationship with people in my family. It was a mess. I found it my only real friend too, because I didn’t have friends, really. It was my way to fill my time and curb the loneliness and sadness I felt.
Years later, it ended. My dad, “uncle” and boyfriend, David, did an intervention on me. That was the beginning of the end. I really guess I needed people to love me and support me and because I was getting it, and having more of a life with friends and college and a support network, I was free from it for the most part.
Years later, I would find myself binging and purging in times of very high stress and it was clearly a time reflection – a compass to alarm me as to what was going on with me emotionally. I would figure it out, get back on track and often be fine for years at a time.
It was only when I was in my 30’s that I met a woman who told me she committed to herself that she would never purge again despite how much she ate. I admired that because bulimia is such an irresponsible, cheaters disease. It completely disregards accountability and skirts the rules preventing a life of integrity. I committed then, myself. I have never puked again since then, despite feeling like I would literally explode on a couple of occasions – that my stomach might in fact rupture, but it didn’t.
So, I’ve been free from puking for over 10 years, but one of the things I’ve been coming to recently is the relationship I have with food, and I am not keen on what I find.
Because I can eat what I want and it rarely effect my weight, it always effects my being, my soul.
This is what I have found.
When I moved back to the States in December 2010, I was fortunate enough to get what I considered a dream job working teaching nutrition education to little people I call them – young students in pre-K – 2nd grade. It was awesome, but only for a year until I got bored.
At any rate, what I learned then, was we have a relationship with food and we can always tell where we are emotionally, based on how we eat. At least this is what I found for myself. I find that true, still, to this day.
One of the character traits I have found with myself of which I am not a fan is this pride issue which I’ve already mentioned – this fact that I can eat what I want without it really effecting my weight. The problem with that is that I tend to pork out a lot. Food affects us. It affects our energy, mainly, and for me, also my emotional well-being. I am affected by how I eat. What I eat. If I eat too much or too little. Trying to feel like I don’t always have to be full to stop eating – this one just came to me last year as I realized how much I’d been eating at dinner time on a regular basis.
One of the feelings I have recognized within myself when I do this is a flagrant disregard for honoring my body. It’s the attitude of, “I’m going to do it because I can.” I don’t like that attitude finding is disrespectful and ugly. It’s like, though I don’t purge anymore, there is still somewhat of that not having to be accountable for what I eat because it doesn’t “seem” to affect me, but, it does, still. It represents a powerlessness, still, too, of not having or exhibiting any self-control.
I have thought this past week that maybe I should begin attending some support groups because though I am not overweight or bulimic, I am exhibiting a powerlessness over my food. I am making it all-powerful and I don’t like that. I make the comment regularly how food is my favorite thing in life. That is sad. But, there is some truth to it too. I love to eat. I love good food. I love to enjoy it. I am grateful for it. But, I have given it a place of respect without properly honoring it or my body to the level it should be.
Let me explain – years ago, not sure how long ago but 15 or more years when I started getting interested in nutrition, I’d done a 9 day fast – I had to quit because it wasn’t good for me and my head aches were tremendous, but I remember when I came off of that fast, I was praying over my food before I ate it, and felt awe and reverence – like I had put food in its place by fasting. I was no longer cramming it in my mouth and devouring it. I was respecting it and grateful for it. I almost cried and have done that still a couple of times this past year, and prior to this year, when I am just very grateful and pray before eating, considerately. There’s a reverence and humility which accompanies it that puts me to tears or at least wells me up😊.
At any rate, my realization this morning as I sat in prayer and considered where I am and where did this awesome feeling I had last week go, I figured it might have to do with my food because that is the only thing I can think of that has put me off – that creates this sense of separation I feel from the Lord created by putting something else “more powerful” in the place of Him.
When I prayed, I confessed my feelings toward my food and how much emphasis I’ve put on it, still. I prayed to be forgiven for putting food before God, and the gluttonous individual I’d become still, at times. I’ve knowingly done it, too, because I wanted to and figured, “tomorrow” I will be better. I have come to know, however, that the “tomorrow” mentality permits a low-living life, poorly allowing one to live for a time that often never comes, and a well-lived life becomes elusive because the lie we tell ourselves to give us what we want for the moment persists, and then tomorrow remains elusive forever.
The thing about gluttony, is even know I am not killing anybody or having an affair with a married man, it’s all the same to God. It is a deadly sin. ”A little leaven leavens the whole lump.” It not only creates a wedge between me and the Lord, but it hampers my soul. Therefore, I lose the power-cord connection I have from God when walking uprightly before the Lord because I put something else in His place, and I also lose personal power because of the physical impairment bad- and overeating has on a body. Many “food-hangovers” have I had! I know it’s wrong yet keep doing it, secretly acting like it’s okay, maybe not consistently, but I allow for it whenever I want. Forgiveness is ours from the Lord when we repent. I am on a new path with this now, hoping to really honor my body and my Lord with my food more, especially when I don’t want to – those are the most important times when we need to push in and use what tools we have, and, as a fruit of the spirit, self-control is mine to experience!!
The Spirit of self-control is what I will exhibit more of in my life. Discipline! Yes! I do it when I want it, but because there is not any seeming outward effect of this behavior on my life, I’ve let it slide, but it affects me any day I let myself get away with it, and had continued to affect me because it has remained unconfessed until this morning. I thank you, Father, for bringing this to the forefront and removing it from me. It is time to walk in self-control.
As I prayed this morning over my delicious garlic, honey-butter and cinnamon toast, ½ banana, and coffee, from my mouth came thanks to the Lord for my meal, but also as I considered more what I was giving thanks for, out of my mouth came that, “For You, God, are my portion.” That prayer gave me new insight and purpose! Yes, God is my portion for every day and everything on this Earth. His is my sufficiency and only need. Yes! Yes! Thank you, God.
I believe that was prompted by the Holy Spirit because I have never used that prayer. Looking it up later, I found it to be in Lamentations 3, and am including many of the verses before and after. One of my favorite verses to contemplate is that the Lord’s mercies and compassions are new every morning. I love that thought! 21 This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. 22 It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. 23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. 24 The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him. 25 The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. 26 It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the Lord.
I’m glad I’ve got money to spend to see if I can fix my skin, both internally and externally. It seems a little extravagant, but I’m worth it, and I’m interested to see if these things really work. If they work, I’ll be psyched, and will be happy for my investment in my skin’s health and beauty, and to understand more the science behind it all. 🙂
Mexico is where I found myself at the end of January on a spontaneous trip to Mexico. What I returned with besides some life-long banked memories were some OTC facial products which would normally have required a prescription. I bought in. $150 dollars later (mucho pesos), I’ve secured some collagen, Retinol-A and Vitamin C cream. I have only used them for a few days, but I believe after day 1 of the Retinol-A, I saw improvements to my facial age spots, but now, I’m not so sure. I will see! I’d show you some picts, but my phone is still in Mexico! ☹
I will continue to focus on my skin because it is my largest area of concern and will require more than 1 month to address its problems which have occurred over these many years since being in Florida. Namely, the idiopathic guttate hypomelanosis and the age spots!
Since the skin generally turns over about every 5 weeks, I will continue to use my newly bought products I purchased in Mexico for addressing my facial “blemishes” and I will hope to see improvements there. I’ll still need to work on the skin on my legs with what I am eating, among treatments of other kinds which I will perhaps address at a later date, but the skin will remain my area of main focus. I will also have to get off sugar again. My 3 months off sugar ended the day after I arrived in Mexico, when I took well advantage of the all-inclusive food sweets during breakfast, lunch and dinner!
For now, I will begin to focus this month, also, on the musculoskeletal system. My focus on this system is due to problems I’ve had with my knees for over 20 years. I’ve felt that beneath my patella there is a hollowness. Also, about 10 years ago I blew out my left knee running and subsequently had a surgery to fix my meniscal tear which was never fixed well, and which still gives me issues to this day. Yoga helps. Biking too.
So, I will focus on building up my skeletal system to strengthen my bones, tendons and ligaments, and I will do so at the gym with weight-bearing exercises. I had a doctor tell me this past summer no more running, but that didn’t sit well with me.
Tomorrow will take me back to the gym. I will start with some yoga and, perhaps some squats and biking. We’ll see how that flows. I will build up my muscles in my legs a little more too. I saw a lot of skin in Mexico this past week, and I find muscular legs attractive!
In terms of food and supplements, my focus will be on doubling up on collagen. I will do so primarily with supplemental powders, and also some bone broth too. Both will help my skeletal system and the collagen will serve my skin well, too. I wish I had a doctor to work with pronto, so I could actually measure whether or not I am actually making progress!!
I’m glad I’ve got money to spend to see if I can fix my skin, both internally and externally. It seems a little extravagant, but I’m worth it, and I’m interested to see if these things really work. Maybe I will not know which product works best because I am using so many in conjunction with the others, but it seems there are always a combination of factors anyway that contribute to health and beauty, and I am doing what I can in this arena to tap into what I know will help me be better physically, both externally and internally.
I have paid the price for now! 😊 The last products I bought tonight for over $300 have offered a money-back guarantee. More on this upon after they arrive. If they work, I’ll be psyched, and will be happy for my investment in my skin’s health and beauty, and to understand more the science behind it all. 🙂
To My Health & Beauty, and…all the best to you and your health and beauty!
So, being that I have already been supplementing with A, it’s now time to focus on eating foods with high amounts of copper and/or supplementing with it, as well, because without it, my body cannot make that enzyme, tyrosinase, which is responsible for producing my melanin!
Having just come off one of the busiest seasons of my life, I have been in a place of reassessment and transition in this new year. Being overwhelmed, and physically and mentally exhausted, failure to keep on top a blog to produce yet more, I was not willing to do so. Physically, I have found myself sick for over a week, and I am not one to get sick. However, despite my physical and mental states which has led to me failing to research and write on a regular basis, and which has led me to accept I will write only when it suits, I have maintained my cause toward healing my skin based on what I already know.
“Stay the course. Do what you can, and be consistently purposeful.”
I have continued to consistently and purposefully eat for my skin’s health. Almost every day, I have eaten strawberries & walnuts, I have had collagen in my smoothies, and maintained abstinence from sugar. I have since bought some Vitamin D and E supplements and have been taking them regularly, and I have “lucked” onto a book called “Plant-Based Beauty” (#plantbasedbeautybook) which I have read much of, and which also happens to focus primarily on the SKIN!
I have made one of the recipes from it, too, Homemade Cashew Milk. One of the modifications left me not being able to get enough – adding pineapples and cottage cheese. Oh my gosh, it was almost soupy, but I could not get enough! It was literally one of the best tastes I’ve ever had!
After doing a bit of research tonight, I considered maybe one of the reasons that cashew concoction was so delicious to me was because my body needed what was in it so much. Copper! Maybe not, but I have since found out a couple of things. Firstly, Vitamin A is necessary to produce an enzyme called tyrosinase, an enzyme which plays a major role in producing melanin, the pigment in our skin and hair, and what is responsible for our tanning. My pigment production is flawed. Idiopathic Guttate Hypomelanosis is what I’ve been diagnosed with, and I am searching to cure it with my diet because I believe that is why my body is failing to produce it anymore – there is some nutrient or nutrients in which I am deficient preventing my body from doing its job, in this case, making melanin.
Our bodies are made to heal themselves if they have what they need. Hipoocrates said it first and most succinctly –
“Let food by thy medicine and medicine by thy food.”
I think my condition is beyond the sun’s fault – the sun normally stimulates melanin production, and my body has failed to make it the more I go into the sun!
What I found, secondly, and upon which I will begin to focus, is that copper is also a necessary component to produce tyrosinase. So, being that I have already been supplementing with A, it’s now time to focus on eating foods with high amounts of copper and/or supplementing with it, as well, because without it, my body cannot make that enzyme, tyrosinase, which is responsible for producing my melanin! And, guess what’s in cashews? Copper! My new milk!
Tyrosine is an amino acid – one of the 20 building blocks of protein. It is considered a non-essential amino acid because it can be made by another amino acid, which is essential, phenylalanine. Essential amino acids cannot be made by the body and must be consumed in our diet’s.
Foods high in tyrosine are chicken, turkey, fish, milk, yogurt, cottage cheese, cheese, peanuts, almonds, pumpkin seeds, sesame seeds, soy products and lima beans, but also in avocados and bananas. And, foods high in phenylalanine are milk, eggs, cheese, nuts, soybeans, chicken, beef, pork, beans and fish. So, if you’re not eating the foods which contain tyrosine, as long as you’re consuming the foods containing phenylalanine, you’re covered. Your body can work toward making tyrosinase, but you’re body needs more than the tyrosine and Vitamin A to make it.
Funnily, I have been eating Shitake mushrooms lately and LOVING them! They, turns out, are high in copper! Maybe that’s why I’m loving them – my body needs their copper! Shitake’s, have 650 micrograms of copper (0.65 milligrams) in a serving size of ½ cup cooked, making them 5th on the list, below, which did not include them!
I’m feeling this copper bit might be the ticket. Maybe I just need the copper and Vitamin A combination to make my melanin production normal again.
I hope my DNA hasn’t mutated which is why I am polka-dots. I’m gonna stick faithfully to the vision I had months ago that these polka-dots flew off my thighs! Let’s go with that, shall we!? They’ll be gone at some point, for sure, and not because I’ve purchased a product that gives the appearance of them being gone, but they’ll really be gone because my body is producing melanin again!
I purchased a product I saw on the t.v., a body coverage perfecter, but my legs are not looking perfect. Can you even tell which parts of my legs have on the corrector? I can still see my dots, but they are slightly better.
Corrector on Left
Corrector on Left
One bit of contradictory research I’ve found, now that I am being more specific in my searching for the source of my pigment failing to produce, is that Vitamin E, though good for the skin, is shown to inhibit melanin production, at least in this study. Comparison of the inhibitory effects of vitamin E analogues on melanogenesis in mouse B16 melanoma cells. As a result, I will only use it topically on my face and on my other sunspot area to lighten them, as that is what study indicates it does. It has the reverse effect of what I am trying to achieve!
So, FYI, copper needs for adults: 900 mcg or .9 mg. Here are some sources for how we can supplement: copper gluconate, copper sulfate and copper chloride, but normally, I’d always go with food first!
Time to eat some copper: purposely eating for my health!
I like this idea of eating with purpose and “getting to know my food” a little better and how it can aid in me looking better, or at least not looking bad. Eating has always been one of my favorite things to do, but now that I am more familiar with what I am eating and why, it gives me that added bonus and spark of excitement when I eat. I’m looking forward to my results.
I’ve finally bought several of the food items that will supply the needed nutrients for my skin to support its health.
I realized as I was making my breakfast, that I am eating with purpose. There is something about having a goal, a mission, a purpose, that is energizing. I am good with this type of thing.
There have been many a thing I have quit, but it is my intention now to add to my diet instead of subtract from my diet. The purposefulness in this is exhilarating because I feel it gives me inspiration. I am not just going through the motions and letting my body decide what it wants. I always eat based on my cravings. I am now eating with intention!
My breakfast contained all good foods for my skin in one way or another. Now, I did not realize that the brown rice was so good for my skin, but apparently is has a multitude of benefits, one of which is antiaging due to its antioxidants! Also, garlic was not on my list, but I was feeling for some garlic, and, if I had acne, it would remove it – it’s a serious anti-everything, if you didn’t know, – it kills bacteria, fungus, stops viruses and is an overall antiseptic! Alright! So, breakfast included:
Brown rice, eggs, green peppers, fresh garlic, coconut oil and shrimp. Yum. Shrimp with brown rice. Now, I know!! Eggs and brown rice is great together, too, btw.
Most of these foods have high antioxidants properties which help prevent the aging of skin whether by preventing free-radical damage or UV ray damage. Pores will be tightened by eggs, excess oil removed, and the eggs will also lend more moisture. An egg a day will be on my menu. I have already put them in my strawberry smoothie – raw – you barely taste it, if at all really, depending on what else you put in there.
Strawberries are excellent sources of vitamin C which is a super anti-oxidant. Vitamin C is also a necessary component in making collagen – the protein that contributes to our skin’s elasticity and integrity.
In addition to shrimp’s other benefits of being a good antioxidant and protector from the sun’s UV rays, it is also a high source of selenium, and with vitamin E, helps to protect our cell’s membranes – their protective coating.
I like this idea of eating with purpose and “getting to know my food” a little better and how it can aid in me looking better, or at least not looking bad. Eating has always been one of my favorite things to do, but now that I am more familiar with what I am eating and why, it gives me that added bonus and spark of excitement when I eat. I’m looking forward to my results. I realize change takes times, and especially health as measured by dietary changes, but I’ve got a whole year!
I’ve posted a quick intro vlog here introducing my 12 month plan to focus on my health, but specifically focusing this month on my skin – part of the integument system – and, the largest organ in our body, and what gives us our first line of protection against disease.
My skin’s condition is what is prompting me to do this. Also, my bones need help too. So, these two parts of my body have given me the desire to just go all in. Plus, I’d desired to do this anyway last year, and now I have the time. So, here’s the pic of my sad leg with idiopathic guttate hypomelanosis, a condition with unknown origins but is known to be exacerbated by the sun, and supposedly incurable. I, however, believe, given the right nutrients, I will be able to cure it, and have pretty, normal skin again without these blotchy white spots. So, here goes!
I’ve gotten some good, healthy foods today, but did not do my research prior to going to the store. Tomorrow I will hit the health food store and get some of the other foods and supplements I need to help my beautiful 49 year-old (in 3 days) skin. I am projecting what I desire here!!
My intention is to provide the foods needed to help each of the different body systems, among other fun facts and ways to improve each system. Tomorrow I will get some collagen and vitamin C and Vitamin E supplements. Yes, I am a proponent for eating for health, but I am also keen on supplementing with certain nutrients, as well, especially the aforementioned ones.
So, I hope you join me on this journey. I am excited to clear out my bod of toxins and provides the nutrients it needs to heal and to glow.
The medical professionals say it is not treatable, and that is what research supports, but I am hopeful that with certain changes, I may have beautiful, spot-free skin, and I will love it! I will try! It will take time, I’m sure, but I’m gonna give it a shot.
This coming year I am planning to focus on healing my body. My main impetus was due to something I have been embarrassed to admit I thought I had. I first noticed an issue on my calves one morning while talking on the phone 9 years ago.
I was outside sitting in the sun with my legs up on my back porch bench. I noticed a few white spots on my calves. I made note of them to my friend, Tara, figuring they must have been my body’s response to living in the Florida sun, again, after some 20 + years. My friend told me it might be a fungus, but I had no desire to accept her possible diagnosis, and dismissed it, attending to, and preferring, instead, my own.
Years later, my 3 little spots had spreading majorly. I went to the doctor. I was diagnosed with Tinea versicolor, a fungus. Creep! A freakin’ fungus!
She was right! I was told to stay out of the sun too, that this was common in people in sub-tropical and tropical environments.
I’m a fan of polka-dots, a big fan, but just not on my legs!! The doctor I consulted did not give me much help or hope. I can’t remember what he said other than stay out of the sun, and it will likely clear itself up in a few months or it will never go away. Something like that. I felt defeated already. A fungus! He may have offered me some remedy, but I took nothing other than maybe a topical which I bought on my own which did nada.
I internalized on some level I would not win against a fungus so did not seriously pursue remedies after my initial fail. But, if I were to try and was to win it, I would require a whole lot of discipline and commitment to what ever remedy(s) might be necessary. I was not up for it. Fungi are rough!
The same year I noticed the white spots, I’d also gotten ringworm for the first time, also a fungus, and a respiratory infection from…another fungus, black mold, spewing from my A/C unit. That lasted for almost a month until I cleaned out my A/C. My respiratory infection subsequently cleared up tout suite.
I have since wondered if that is what caused this infection, though they are not even the same genus.
Well, nine years later, I’m legs fulla polka dots. My brother even commented to me this year at the beach, “What are those white spots on your legs?” Greaaat! They’re visibly noticeable from a distance! Poop!
The Fight Is On
So, many years later, my initial fail and interest in terms of persisting on getting rid of this fungus had gone by the wayside. I have been fighting back! This MUST go!
I have been fighting back with: Selson Blue (fungal fighter) to wash my body. I bought Epsom salts to bath in, I take garlic pills to help kill the fungus from the inside-out, drink Pau d’ Arco tea for the same reason, and use cinnamon bark extract all over my lower extremities too. I smell spicy! Finally, I’ve been ingesting coconut oil, but I think I bought that initially because I’d been having brain fog – an potential result of yet another fungus, candida, but I don’t have that one! Oh yeah, and I’ve also taken billions of probiotics recently too!
What I’ve read is this Tinea is actually a commensal fungus – it is found naturally on our skin, but when the immune system is compromised and the populations of bacteria on our skin are reduced, they can take over – just like when women get a yeast infection from taking an antibiotic. That is what actually happens in the vagina – bacteria and fungus are present most everywhere – the bacteria get killed off due to the antibiotic, and the yeast, the candida, take over as a result, until the good bacterial population is restored. Balance is important! Population Ecology 101.
So, the other night I go to Thanksgiving dinner at my Aunt Judy’s house where I get to see one of my cousins I haven’t seen in years. He’s a top Mohs surgeon and dermatologist. I planned on hitting him up for some serious treatments for the fungus. I figured he could, and would, be able to help me. I felt hopeful. I was glad, too, because I felt that was the perfect time. I’d already begun my fight, and figured he’d back me up with some extra ammo to accompany my many treatments. I’d hoped some serious prescribed meds and topicals would kick this thing out! BTW, I’d also quit sugar sometime back, as well, but not because I wanted to ban my fungus from the yumminess of it as well. That would just prove to be another way to benefit the health of my skin.
I held off my fungal informative and med request until well after dinner, not wanting to gross anyone out. I just came out with it to my cousin: “I need your help.” I was serious. He inquired as to what. “I need the strongest anti-fungal medication you can prescribe for me, and I’d like three different kinds of it to cover all my bases, and a topical lotion, to boot. I’d also like a year’s supply of it all.” LOL. Like he’d just take my orders 🙂 How funny is that? I really was serious though. I needed serious treatment for this funky fungi.
My family seemed puzzled as I spoke. “What’s going on?” he asked. “I have Tinea.” “Let me see.” I walked over to him, pulled up my pant leg, exposed my leg, and balanced myself with my hand on his head while he looked at my creepy little spots. He responded quite quickly, “You don’t have Tinea,” was his prompt diagnosis. You have Idiopathic Guttate Hypomelanosis. Stop doing what you’re doing. You don’t need to be doing all that stuff.” He was adamantly soft.
The Skeptical Observer
He asked me if I wanted him to write it down. “No, I’m aware of it.” I’d previously found this online as well, but believed it was still Tinea or some other fungus because of how it behaved and looked. I wasn’t buying the sunspot bit from the internet anymore than I was internalizing it from my cousin.
Idiopathic Guttate Hypomelanosis is a condition whereby the skin stops producing melanin, creating little white spots, but docs don’t know why, the Iiyopathic bit, and it is exacerbated by the sun, supposedly, too, which I got a heck of a lot this summer perhaps increasing these babes to the point of where they are now. Ike!
The problem I have with ths IGH diagnosis is many fold. First, I’m supposed to stay out of the sun because it contributes to it, yet the sun actually creates more melanin when we are exposed to it, so that’s anomalous but dermatologists insist the sun is what causes this hyopmelanosis. So, I’m a little confused at this contradiction. Although, maybe my DNA has mutated somehow and created this condition or there is some weird autoimmune thing going on associated with this. At any rate…I appreciated the diagnosis because it made me feel less the leper and more just a result of my sub-tropical environment.
Even know Will, is a dermatologist, and the first doc I went to was a doc in a walk-in clinic with no specialization, especially in the area of the skin, I was reluctant to believe what I have isn’t a fungus because of the fungal nature of what I’ve observed over the years, and what it looks like. But I also want to believe it is in fact IGH because it gives me hope I can beat it! My thought, since it is NOT a fungus, I can heal myself more easily. There is hope for me to restore my body, somehow, according to me:).
My Belief in Healing through Nutrition
My belief is that if the body has what it needs to heal, it will. My belief is that what causes diseases are often related to nutrient deficiencies, but that association is not honored publicly. It seems highly logical to me. Give the body what it needs, it will heal, unless the genes are mutated that control what mechanisms or pathways regulate a system. The body should be able to be in perfect health, as we are designed, given adequate nutrition. I love this marvelous machine that is our bodies! We are miraculous.
Beliefs in tact, here I am. I am ready to fight for my skin. I believe that what ever this condition is, I can treat it with a better diet. Maybe I need to stay out of the sun so much, and use sunscreen even when I’m not at the beach, which I will, but there is still more to this, maybe. It’s only gotten worse over the years, not better. There is still something missing, I think. I am going to try and find out what that is!
I know Will and the medical profession say it is not treatable, and that is what research supports, but I am hopeful that with certain changes, I may have beautiful, spot-free skin, and I will love it! I will try! It will take time, I’m sure, but I’m gonna give it a shot.
I’ve had this progressive, chronic condition for 9 years. I had a vision recently, this past month, where the spots were flying off my thighs. I’m going to faithfully believe what I saw!
So, my plan, I am merging it with something I thought to do last year, but last year wasn’t specifically focused. My more focused plan, this year: to focus on the health of my 12 body systems, 1 each month, and with a specific focus on my skin’s health.
I’ve already started cleansing this month, and the following 12 months will lead me in a much more interesting field of learning and exploration, as I delve deeper into my health in new ways.
I will chart what I am doing to get rid of this “untreatable” condition.
I will focus on how to promote the health of each of the 12 body systems, what exercise I might do to benefit them, healthy supplements that promote their health, scientific evidence that supports their best functioning, mental and spiritual relationships to food, and…my favorite, food itself, that will enrich my body’s systems. I will throw in some healthy tidbits, and mindsets that will help facilitate healthy ways of living. I will aim to hit every one of the 12 systems in one capacity or another over the next 12 months while I heal!!
Healing to Come
So, come, join me in my journey as I aim to cleanse, this month, and heal the rest.
My goal is to heal my body from this this funky condition. My goal will cause me to heal. I will achieve healing when I seek it passionately. More will come from it though. New heights will allow new visions. The domino effect will take effect while one good thing will lead to another. Throughout this year, I will be excited to see what happens as I learn more about the relationships which exist among my body systems, partake of new foods, exercises, and experiments. As I explore the many facets of my new health regime, I will be led to what health means to me and looks like for me. I will look forward to all this coming year has to offer me.
May you be inspired as you team up with me to learn, engage, and put your body to healing and wholeness. I know I will.
Here’s to my health! Here’s to our health.
P.S. My other health needs include:
Knee, tendon, cartilage restoration from arthritis and torn meniscus (connective tissue focus:)), and a spinal curvature issue from who knows what – running too much on a bum, post-surgical knee??
I went to the gym today. It’s the first time I’ve worked out
there in a while. I’ve been to yoga a couple of times, but now, I am set on
going for more – to get out of my chair – a habit I’ve begun to fall into after
work because I’ve worked a lot of 12 – 14 hour days in the past 3 weeks. I’m
going to make a better choice. I know that working out makes me better – more diligent,
more energetic, more into life.
So, I dragged myself there. Wasn’t into it at all, but there was an inkling of excitement that I was doing it. I was there about an hour and worked out about 50 mins. I started in a spinning class. Not into it. Thought I might get hurt for some reason. Thought to go and watch The Five instead while I rode the bike upstairs. Bored. Went to the elliptical. Saw a woman who I’ve never seen with such energy before – she had a pep in her step and every part of her body! She was so energetic I thought she might be on something, but think she must’ve just been really into her Zumba class. I may take her class another day though Zumba is not my thing. It made me smile just watching her so peppily prancing around fully in every single move, and they were not all easy moves, and they were so fast. Not sure I’ll be able to do everything, but it will jazz me up. End up treadmilling: walking and running and walking, and finally stretching and hitting a couple of machines before I left, mildly sweating, but not soaked, as I would have been if I spun!
Listening to David Jeremiah in the background, and he is talking about self-discipline and the Holy Spirit and how we need Him to have it. For sure. In listening to him, it is exactly where I am – practicing self-discipline right now to develop new habits and restore my body to it’s strength😊
It’s been interesting to look into my life objectively. I’ve been doing that over the past three days – seeing me in my life, where I am now, and what I am not doing with it with my free time. I’m glad I am not beating myself up or bogging myself down with my reality. My reality is good, but it’s got me alone and not engaged in anything out side of work. There’s been a lot of t.v. time and food involved. It’s okay. I realize I’m transitioning. It’s time to make some decisions.
It’s interesting how when we are objective we can make better decisions. I feel that way. I’m clearer because there is less static due to me not objecting to my behavior, but merely looking at it for what it is and where I am in my process right now.
In being more objective with where I am and deciding on what to do, instead of responding to my behavior objectionably, I’m able to choose a path reasonably.
I’ve just looked out on my life, as if I am out of my body looking into to my behaviors, actions, patterns, thoughts. Whatever I am feeling and experiencing, I am doing so as a spectator only, allowing myself to go through the motions, but aware of them and their consequences. There’s simply an assessment. Do you want this life? This is what you are doing. Is it getting you anything? Do you want this? Things are good, but if I do more, I will have more, and what do I want? It will not some on it’s own. I have needed a bit of downtime for certain due to the schedule I’ve had to keep these past weeks, but there is a new awareness in my life. What will I do with my time remains to be seen in a moment by moment basis, but I am aware and that IS GOOD.
My failure to perform on a large scare has had to do with the amount of what I feel I have or need to do. Do you ever feel you have so much to do in your life you are paralyzed by it and do nothing?
I’ve felt that way for the past 10 years almost. It’s debilitating. I’m making progress little by little, but also felt I’ve made no true progress, really. Maybe it’s just following through and finishing.
So, the sitting in my chair is partly due to strenuous work schedule and partly to do with debilitating, overwhelming nature of all my ideas and goals. Ike! So, objectivity is suiting me well and getting me motivated. I have found in the past that judgment is like a nerve-agent – paralyzing me into doing nothing. It’s just me. No one holding me back but me, if I so choose. No dog, no man, no kids, rarely see friends and family, so I have a lot of time! Well, not really, but I must do more than just watch television all the time with what little time I do have because that is so wasteful most of the time!
There is more to my lack of motivation, and I’ve realized, in part, it is because if I feel there is no reason to do my goals, like they will have not benefit, then why do them? It’s an odd place, but it’s partly where I am and another topic maybe for another time.
Anyway, coming home tonight, I felt good. Not that I’d had a
great workout, but because I made the decision and I followed through on it,
and I knew I was interested in going back, and not to get a better body, though
I am looking forward to that, but to be stronger.
I ran a little bit tonight, but was worried about my knee
locking up and the fact that I haven’t in awhile so I was worried about how
strong my knees are. I took it easy and ran only 10 minutes. That was what
sparked my desire to work out more – to become stronger. At 48, I don’t like
the fact that I feel a wee-bit feeble in my knees when I run, and had some
issues this summer that led the doc to tell me no more running. So, my goal is
to be strong.
There’s nothing like being strong. Knowing it is good too.
Having your strength zapped or not being able to walk hardly – anything so
simple that many of us do regularly and take advantage of, to be able to run
freely and walk down the stairs without wobbling, is awesome. Strength feels so
good. How do you feel? Do you feel strong? It’s a super feeling!
So, that is my new goal: Being Strong. I’m looking forward to
Here’s to good choices, following through, and being strong!